#friday

here we are again the end of another week…lately I’ve noticed that I have lost all sense of time…each day blurs together with the next..none being anymore distinct than the other…awakened at another reasonable hour again this morning… that in of itself is progress for me..my cold, bitter power walk felt good.. I am mindful and aware today…worry free..living in the present….the weather is back to dark grey and dull here in upstate NY ….looking forward to getting back to my Nashville home…grateful for my bed and the variety of foods that I have access to…I hope everyone has a fantastic Friday…take a moment to be thankful for something or someone in your life…#stay triumphant

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#midnight meditation

ending my day mindful and aware…in this very moment my body is aching, piercing, pulsating, writhing and I am as calm as a cucumber waiting for my melatonin and muscle relaxant to kick in…lived another day, another life, down this chronic road…in a chronic world…praying for my friends and their relationships…I admire everyone who is married, relationships are rough, tough, and so far I’ve learned I am not cut out for them…love takes time…but I digress…thanks to all the readers and followers, and everyone who takes the time to post a thoughtful comment…I am just a little soul in a fibro filled world..here’s to sweet dreams and beautiful nightmares…good night…#stay triumphant

#mindful thursday

it’s always darkest before the dawn…joy truly does come in the morning…woke up this morning the earliest I have in over two weeks….today is partly cloudy and wait for it!….sunny…thankful to be able to breathe in the fresh air and the ability to take my daily walk this morning…working on being mindful and living in the present moment …what are you grateful for today??….try to be calm and anxiety free …remember 98% of what we stress out about will never come to fruition…save your energy for peaceful and happy thoughts…live in the present, leave the problems of yesterday in the past, and do not be anxious about tomorrow…#stay blessed….

# wednesday posting

sorry for my lack of meaningful posts this week…I have been in that not so positive dark place that is inevitable and inescapable no matter how hard you try…today I simply existed..to worn out and fatigued to be irritated by the incessant nerve pain…I woke up…I ate…I walked…but my heart wasn’t in any of it…my mood is low..and the cold Western NY air, lack of sunshine for the 5th consecutive day, and my homesickness are all contributing factors to my Blah factor…I won’t let this become a venting post…but on a positive note…I am grateful for my CBT (cognitive behavior therapist) he is truly the best and I feel represents my only non-judgmental human relationship with whom I can articulate my thoughts with words…he recommended that I see a psychiatrist… I finally feel at that place where I can’t improve and stabilize my mood with natural homeopathics alone as my chemical imbalance has become severe enough to merit synthetic intervention aka prescription medication…. I would write more about my thoughts on prescription meds ,my stance on their place in my life, and my decision to move forward with potential mind altering medication…but I will save that for another post…I am simply to tired and unmotivated to type any more…thank you for reading and have a blessed night….remember what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger even when we feel like we can take no more… # peace and love ….. #stay triumphant