#sweet dreams & beautiful nightmares

blue_moon_by_chasing_dreams_350another week and weekend has come to an end…I can’t believe we are already half way through month one of 2013…for me, all the days and weeks kind of blur together…especially with me being home bound the majority of the time…I’ll keep this post positive even though my body isn’t feeling so…grateful that the sun made a return and that I was able to get out the house a few times this weekend…thankful for the roof over my head, my heat and hot water, and the ability to breathe…I hope every has a safe night, with peaceful dreams, and maybe a beautiful nightmare or (two)…praying for joy in the morning and no weeping for tonight….you (we) are more blessed than we know…goodnight #stay triumphant

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#in the dark

feeling worse tonight than I did this morning… pain and fatigue kept me in bed until 11 am….currently writhing in pain while I type in the dark…however, I did make it out of the lair today…bought a second hand bread machine from a trading post that I am part of on Facebook, a quick stop in the grocery store, and that pretty much did me in for the day….How was your day…hopefully productive and not as painful as mine…I think that’s all I have tonight…yea I think that’s it…my mind has gone blank…#goodnight #stay triumphant

#everything’s gonna be alright

the wrong side of the bed expression won’t cut it for today…I woke up feeling like I had slept on the floor….better yet on the pavement, outside, all night in the freezing rain…needless to say it wasn’t a great moment…but today was doctor appointment day so I was forced out of the lair…probably for the best..sunshine made a return and the vitamin D was much needed for all….at this point me and doctor visits are an exercise in futility…a necessary evil, that stresses out my system, makes me feel nauseous, sick to my stomach, shaky…despondent, angry…and all of the above…I’m so far over doctors that I don’t even have the vocabulary necessary to articulate…and that is no exaggeration…and so I won’t even try to articulate…what I will say is my day ended better than it began, mentally more so than anything…I was able to turn my attitude around…find positivity and carry forth…I guess that’s what it’s all about…physically I feel beat, worn, broken, maimed, tattered….but mentally I know that everything’s gonna be alright….and with that I’ll sign off…wishing, hoping and praying for strength tomorrow, sending positive vibes to everyone feeling like they want to give up on the world, please keep pushing on….in time everything will be alright….#good night…peace be with you #stay triumphant

#can’t even know what to say

I can’t even know what to say…another day…another flare…day I can’t even remember of this most recent flare…pain specialist and psychiatry visit tomorrow…feeling worn out, fatigued out, tired out, pained out and just put out…how was your day…on a happy note the sun made a comeback today…thank goodness…despite the pain and fatigue…sunshine makes everything just a tad bit more tolerable…weeping may endure tonight, but joy comes in the morning…stay positive, you are blessed and worth more than many sparrows….#goodnight #stay triumphant

#it’s a wrap

I definitely over did it this evening…I’m wired for awhile I’m in so much pain….that’s about all the typing I can sustain…praying for strength and spirit tonight….positive vibes for everyone enduring pain …this too shall pass…good night # stay triumphant

#don’t count me out

Happy Tuesday! I spent the majority of today in bed…caught up with a friend…got a walk in…took a nap…rest…cleaned…overall it was an OK day….my evening turned out better than my morning…I was able to cook a nice (albeit late) meal…2nd week of this most recent flare..the cold, grey, and cloudy skies do nothing for my muscles or joints…even still I was happy to be able to push through the fog and get a walk in..I always feel so powerful when I power walk….I feel one step closer to the runner that I used to be…boy were those good times….one day I will run again…not today, not tomorrow, but one day….meanwhile I will be grateful that I have two working legs that I can move most of the time and they allow me to walk….how was your day??…keep your positive vibes flowing…count your blessings…and be grateful for what you can do…not on what you can’t….when you can do DO and when you can’t DON’T….it is OK to say NO…don’t let anyone tell you otherwise….and don’t let yourself feel guilty about it…so often we are our own worst critic…..but enough of my rambling….hoping for a better Wednesday…and praying for all those undergoing hardships…keep the faith…#stay triumphant #goodnight