On my Ipod: Fly

I came to win, to fight, to conquer to thrive…I came to to win, to survive, to prosper to rise…to FLY...these lyrics really sum up my thoughts and feelings at this very moment… every time I overcome a hurdle…push through the fatigue and fog… for the all times when I take three steps forward then get pushed five steps back…to the doctors who tell me it is all in my bed….when I know better that it’s not…for living in this skin and fighting this monster day after day…for the times when I give in to the pain…but never give up on the fight…for the small accomplishments that seem so insignificant to you… but are small victories for me…for remembering that I’m not a failure until I quit……I will win, I will survive…. I WILL FLY... #get ready for it

Fly by Nicki Minaj


On my Ipod: can you stand the rain

sunny days, everyone loves them…but Can you stand the rain….New Edition was speaking to a love interest…but the overarching message of this song applies to my situation…as you know I am amidst an intense flareup….as I predicted this weekend…my pushing and being immodest last week  caught up with me this week…and my body is pushing back….even though I am accustomed to this….flare surges always catch my mind off guard as I can never know how intense the pain and fatigue will be, or how long they will last…it is so easy to forget the “good”(remember good for me is relative, pain and fatigue are always there, and high but I bear with it) and wallow in woe and mourn on the more severe days….but as the song says I am trying to stand the rain…so, this time I won’t wallow in a woeful place, just be honest and know that this too will pass….Can you stand the rain? ….praying for peace of mind and solace for all those mourning, paining, and suffering tonight….for some joy will not come in the morning…but hopefully sooner rather than later #goodnight #stay triumphant

#on my Ipod: Insomnia

so, I thought of this new feature during my long plane ride back to Nashville (read more on that here). So, I will begin to post about songs that I listen to and for whatever reason really move my soul, speak to me, and help me cope with my pain..music like writing and reading, is my release and my therapy….and more often than not, it is a song that touches emotions I never realized still existed and hadn’t become deadened by constant inflammation….I am an all music genre lover….rather than the genre, it is the feeling, the movement, the lyric, melody, key, or passion that make me take to a song regardless of the genre…I have been in a R&B kinda mood for months now and the song on this first #on my Ipod feature is called Insomnia by the artist Sammie… you can read more about Sammie here ….he gained notoriety in the early 2000’s…but took time off to finish school, live life, and find his voice…he was MIA for a minute and is back on his musical journey and grind releasing a superb free mixtape….his song Insomnia really speaks for it self for me in terms of my battle with sleep and being up all night, unable to fall asleep…his emotion, passion, and self penned lyrics literally had me up all night replaying the song repeatedly, because I just could not believe another soul experiences what I experience…the song puts the experience of insomnia and sleeplessness to words and music in a way I could never do justice to….catch up with Sammie and download his free mixtape…you won’t be disappointed (and if you were wondering…I was in no way paid to endorse this artist or song)…#happy listening